think about your job in terms of ‘bond’. every month you earn a salary and the right to earn it next month. how boring. perhpas you should try and make a product and scale.
even better, just do what you want while lowering your ‘walking cost’ (no longer running cost).
what is your ‘soul price’? the cost of doing what you are doing. think of it as opportunity cost
how close are you to the gutter? how close are you to what you want to do?